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Crazy lady rants

what’s considered “crazy”vs “normal”

on July 13, 2016
Why can’t someone have a bad mood without someone saying “you need an anti-depressant” why can’t I have a lot on my mind, need time to myself before I go insane without someone saying “you need a stabilizer”
maybe I don’t feel the need to medicate my problems,maybe I prefer identifying my issues and finding a solution so I can move past it.
I am NOT depressed and I’m NOT experiencing erratic moods. I AM experiencing a lot of financial stress, a lot of relationship issues, a lot of torn feelings, I’m homesick, I was never country and never will be, I feel isolated, alone and used.
No pill will fix any of those problems. A pill will only numb the emotions that as a human being I am entitled to feel. I’m allowed to feel angry, sad, stressed out, emotional, just as much as I’m allowed to laugh, cry, walk or run.
I am a human being with a beating heart and a brain that thinks. Last time I checked having feelings is all part of being alive.
I have no desire to kill myself, I don’t hate anyone or anything, I am simply going through a stage that many other people go through in life. It’s called LIFE! But because I am different than some people I know, they can’t understand my way of dealing with things. They only accuse me of being ill minded and want me to go get pills. NO THANK YOU! been there done that, and unless I feel myself in a dark hole with death choking me, then I will very well deal with my problems head on so I can move forward with my life. Sitting still with a blindfold on never gets anything solved.
So, am I wrong/crazy for thinking this way? Or are these people suggesting a prescription is the answer just want me like them? popping pills to numb the pain and stress even though they wake up just as miserable, stressed, and unhappy as they were 25 years ago?????
somebody help me understand. No wonder I have issues. Being told who you are ultimately defines you. I’m starting to wonder if maybe I am okay and the people that have drilled it in my head my whole life are the ones with the problems???
Maybe my stages of depression are caused by my environment. Maybe my moods are normal. I mean do normal people have bad days? Do normal people ever feel stressed out or sad? Overwhelmed or feel like they need a change???  Or do “crazy” people only experience those things?

I am very aware of my mental state. There have been times in my life when I’ve been so depressed I knew it was more than just a bad day or a bad week. I knew I needed help and I went and got it to help pull me through. I know my brain is damaged. My whole gene pool has mental issues, I just feel like I have a better grip on mine and a better understanding on life and what makes me tick. I had a different up bringing than my siblings and my parents. My parents know me, but they have no idea who I really am. I was a latch key kid raised by a single father with help from a guardian angel, an earth angel and mothers of my friends. I share their DNA, but certainly not their way of thinking.
somebody who isn’t blood has to be able to make sense of this. Cause now I have it in my head I’m just crazy and need pills to numb me.

3 responses to “what’s considered “crazy”vs “normal”

  1. Any illness can be intrinsic or extrinsic which means they can be caused by the body or by circumstance. Example: if you get skin cancer because of an overproduction of melanin it would be intrinsic, but having skin cancer because of sitting in a tanning bed twice a week is extrinsic. Most psychological illnesses tend to have intrinsic AND extrinsic features. The problems with meds aren’t that they don’t work, it’s that they can only treat the internal portion. Crazy and normal are such relative words that just mean “nonstandard” and “standard”. Think of it as a spectrum not a dichotomy.

  2. jacobtugwood says:

    Unfortunately going on anti depressants seems to be the go to solution these days. Even when I go to see my local GP and talk about my mental health issues, they often ask about whether I have considered anti depressants before even mentioning therapy etc. It’s just wrong on so many levels.
    By the sounds of it you know how to set your own goals and achieve them. So it must be frustrating for you to be told to go on them constantly.

    • bluegrl13 says:

      That’s my frustration, doctors have quotas to meet, how many patients can you fit in your 8 hour day. Not how many patients can you help in your 8 hour day.
      Here’s a pill see you next month or 6 I don’t know… Whenever I have an opening. It’s sad.

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